Hold on a moment. Let me breathe first. Back it up just a little. I’m about to fucking erupt. Breathe in. Hold. And breathe out. Okay. Okay. Okay. I think now I am fine to complete this infinity thoughts of mine.
I am pretty clear about everything. Whenever I get confuse about anything, I think about it for minutes to hours but when I done thinking, I am done. I never think about it again no matter what will be the result is, if I have to do it then I have to. Often people say “you have ego and attitude.” May be yes or may be not. According to me the ego is that part of our personality that falsely believes itself to be separated from others. The ego creates an identity as an attempt to prove this separation. This identity is defined in terms of unique characteristics. We forgets that we all made of the same stuff and nature and therefore we are not different from each other but it doesn’t mean we are more intelligent and smart from others. A belief in separation leads to thoughts of death, abandonment, isolation, rejection and starvation, which in turn lead to dysfunctional behavior patterns including selfishness, cruelty, violence, crime and conflict of all kinds. It’s caused by believing that if what’s outside of us is not us, then it must be a competitor or an enemy. As an example our hand have five fingers with different lengths and shape if they think like an individual and just act differently so what’s happened but actually they thought “We are all fingers on the same hand. What would be the sense in one finger hurting another? The wound could become infected; the infection could then spread to the hand, and from there to all the other fingers. Perhaps the whole hand would then need to be amputated.” Conflict between people on Earth has harmed not only each other, but the planet itself – and now there is a risk to everyone. As it becomes increasingly common knowledge that everything in the universe is one, we will begin experiencing ourselves as one. Live a better life and help others too in living the same. Just simply enjoy and live free.
Free your mind, let go of your hate and learn that this world is an extraordinarily beautiful place. Learn to love yourself, let go of your judgmental bullshit and find happiness in yourself. I’m trying to do exactly that every time I take to this page, every time I work on my manuscripts, and with every breath that I take. I’m the kind of man who will do anything for people I like. But if you cross me, if you judge me or try to destroy who I want to be, then I am a goddamn wolf who is going to rip you apart limb from limb and bury your remains my backyard. I am serious.
How can someone who claims to be so intelligent have made so many mistakes? Most of the people asked me this question. Dude, I am a fucking stupid human and I love making mistakes. What’s your problem? I try to imagine what steps I need to take in my life to bridge the gap between who I am and who I long to be. Whereas I was once a boy I’m now a man. My chin that was once smooth is now covered with coarse hair. The skin around my eyes has grown the faintest inklings of crow’s feet, and my face is slightly freckled from a youth spent in the sun. For the most part I find myself comforted by the changes I see before me. I’ve grown older, wiser, and stronger. I’m gaining maturity while still possessing that youthful zeal. But when I focus on my eyes and ask myself those poignant questions; when I stare at the tiredness in them, they tell me that I’ve fallen short of where I could be by now.
I stopped giving fuck to others long ago. Today I am writing this because I felt writing one and fuck it off if you still have problem with it and this time it is ego. I am a microcosm in my own right, and I will produce what is right for me. I pay no attention to the judgment of others. I’m not some kind of fucking superstar or centerfold who’s here to bend over backwards to appease every damn person I meet. It is my life. If you don’t know how to treat your friends rightly. Sorry, never expect anything from others. Lastly, I would like to thanks Newton and Karma.
“Every action has equal and opposite reaction.” – 3rd law
“What goes around comes around, as you sow, so shall you reap” – Karma
© Shubham Malik